Around once every year to two years I know it's time to go in to a deep contemplation and ask myself the question "What do I desire now?" One morning last week I stepped in to a gentle "life review" to consider what I most wanted to create in my relationships, achieve in my work space and how I could keep shaping my lifestyle along the lines that I'd find most fulfilling. Writing these thoughts down (and translating them as positive affirmations) has been a potent way for me to gain some clarity in the past. I've had to be really careful about what I've wished for!
This time I though I'd try something different and use my Tabella cards, gazing in to each of the Tabella images to stimulate reactions that could offer me some clues along this journey. Knowing that I purposefully worked in just about every trigger and theme that I could think of gave me confidence that they could assist me to gain a wider perspective.
Here is just one of the affirmations that spontaneously sprang forth that day when I realised that I had something to say about the 'Amphitheatre' card (by Sonya Dorant). It is perhaps the most relevant to my work with Tabella:
" I will take Tabella on to a more brightly lit stage and not be dazzled by the lights and unfamiliar environment, but will look out and see that we are all equal. People's attendance and listening is also an active process (as is my listening) and so the dynamic is still one of sharing and I can invite feedback from others to affirm this."
It was one of a number of small breakthrough insights for me, because I came to realise how important for me the concept of an equal exchange in my dealings with others is - that I could open more fully to creating this and clear some blockages.
I noticed that by using the Tabella cards I wasn't trying to force my thinking down certain pathways and in a sense, dictate to the Universe what I wanted. In fact, what came out were a bunch of seemingly unrelated ideas that will, no doubt, jiggle themselves about in my consciousness over time; forming links and patterns where appropriate. The cards lent a certain structure but kept my process open and flowing.
I feel that children also enjoy being asked "What do you really want now?" I have typically been bowled over at first, yet touched, when someone has asked me this. It has said to me that my interests were truly at the heart of their question and in the front of their minds. I will choose my moment so that it doesn't come out sounding contrived and hear what my youngest girl has to say about this. I would probably do well to top up the credit card in advance!